6 months and 8 days ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. He was PERFECT!
In all honesty though I still don’t think that I feel like a mother! Don’t get me wrong, I love him with all of my heart but I don’t actually feel like a mother. I still feel like me! I was supposed to change though wasn’t I? Everyone said that I would. “You’ll feel so different when you have a baby” they said “You won’t be you anymore, you’ll be a mum”. But I am still me. Does that mean that I’m not a good mum? Was the magic switch, that was supposed to flick on as soon as I saw him, broken that day?
All I know is that I have a 6 month and 8 days old baby boy currently asleep on me right now as I write this and when I look at him I know that I love him BUT I am still me. Whether that is right or wrong, good or bad I don’t care – it is just how it is!